Visiting Teaching Handout Sept 2014

September 2014’s visiting teaching message:

The Divine Mission of Jesus Christ: Comforter

I made a small handout for the women I plan to visit.  They print as a 4×6.  The vertical one is designed to be a bookmark, just punch a hole in the marked spot, and feed a ribbon through.

Feel free to use FOR PERSONAL USE ONLY.

VTsept2014 VTsept2014bookmark

{Design elements from EMD Sunflower Designs, Karen Diamond Designs, and Harper Finch}

{for personal use only}  

{Feel free to link or print, but do not redistribute or sell}  


Ten steps forward and one step back …

With most things, progress is some steps forward, then a couple back. It’s the same with Post Partum Depression. Two years ago, it was half a step forward, 10 steps backwards. A year ago it was 1 step forward, 2 steps back. Lately it’s been all forward progress – until today. Today has been my one step back. I’ve gone about a month without having a bad PPD day, and today has been rough. I’ve gone through intrusive thoughts, self doubt, and severe anxiety. But it hasn’t been as hopeless as in the past, because the good days are so fresh in my mind. Today has been a bad day … but I know this cloud isn’t here to stay.

It’s interesting in depression. In the depths of it, the “sunday school answers” didn’t help me. I’d pray, I’d read, and I’d feel lost. But now that I’m getting out of depression, those things make a big difference. I just wanted to mention that, because when people heard “Depression”, their fix-all was “Are you reading scriptures? Praying?”. And it hurt me so badly – made me feel so much worse of myself. If I was doing those things, I wasn’t doing them well enough, because I still had so much emotional pain. I can’t look back and remember a moment of thinking “God is carrying me now” – I remember crying to Heavenly Father over and over for help. However, now that I do look back, I couldn’t feel Him carrying me, but He was, as were His angels. Without being carried through it, I would not be here today. It was so horrible, so dark and lonely, but satan was not able to destroy me. God didn’t let that happen.

Even when there seemed to be no light at the end of my PPD tunnel, God could see it. He slowly led me through the suffocating darkness – He didn’t rush me, but slowly helped me recover. And the light WAS there. I now feel like my warm sunshine is just on the other side of today’s storm cloud – just like it was there yesterday.

I found a hymn as I was practicing my old piano skills the other day. I don’t recall ever hearing it before, and with my rusty piano skills, I wasn’t every sure what key it was in, so I don’t know the tune. But, the words really struck me:

“Lean On My Ample Arm” (Hymn #120)

“Lean on my ample arm, O thou depressed
And I will bid the storm cease from thy breast.
What e’er thy lot may be on life’s complaining sea,
If thou wilt come to Me, thou shall have rest.

Lift up thy tearful eyes, sad heart, to me
I am the sacrifice offered for thee.
In Me thy pain shall cease, in Me is thy release,
In me thou shalt have peace, eternally.

~Theadore E. Curtis

The peace doesn’t come as you expect it, but it is always there, watching over you. We may not have peace today or tomorrow, but in lifting our tearful eyes up to God, peace will come.

Happy New Year!

I have plans for you, dear 2007 🙂

This year I will:

  • Read my scriptures daily – even if it’s just one verse
  • Walk / excersize 5x a week – even if it’s just around the block.
  • Focus on losing weight, with smaller 10 lb goals.
  • No longer use Shopping or Eating -Therapy when I’m sad
  • Work on making my home a “Divine Instituation”
  • Create a safe, orderly, peaceful home for my children
  • Prepare my Sunbeam lessons BEFORE Sunday!

MY ONLY LIMITS ARE SELF-IMPOSED! I can do this, and it will make a difference in my life, and the life of my family. ALL I NEED TO DO IS TAKE ONE STEP – then the other steps will fall into place.

…When I have grown a foot or two …

My little brother is now a missionary. I can’t believe my baby brother is headed to the missionary training center tomorrow! He’ll be serving in the Little Rock, AK mission. I am so proud of him – he’s the first from our family to serve, and he is such an amazing, amazing kid. I’m on the look out for a darling girl who will be ready to meet him in 2 years and a few months 🙂 He’s such an awsome kid.

It was so neat to listen to people talk about him when they met me this weekend. Everyone said what an amazing person he is, and how he is just such a good friend. Even the older people were saying that he was a good friend to them. I’ve seen him as my cute, but pesky little brother my whole life, and now I see him for what he’s grown up into (and I mean grown! He’s 6’5″ now!), and what others see in him. He’s so spiritual, tenderhearted, kind, outgowing, and thoughtful of others… everyone (the girls, the guys, the adults) all describe him as a big gentle teddy-bear. Even playing lacrosse, he’d help the opponants up if he knocked one over … play hard, but kindness always comes first to him. He’s just amazing, and I am so proud of him!

Some sentimental pictures for you!

With our lil sister, and his dog, Lady … he was 8.

Age 11

I’m biased but I think he’s one handsome Elder!
I’m so glad I was able to fly out to be with my family this weekend, see him get set apart as an elder, and help him pack. Being “home” was nice, and I was able to snuggle up with my siblings and just relax … feel like “one of the kids” who happens to be a mom, instead of “the mom”.